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| These flowers don't care who I vote for. Yet another reason why flowers are awesome people. |
So, I really need to learn to stop paying attention and trying to get involved in what other people care about and just be cool with doing my own thing.
It's a problem I've had forever: I want to be cool. Desperately. But I don't feel like I am.
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| That laughing 16-year-old thinks she's hideous and unpopular. One of my old friends posted a bunch of pictures from high school on Facebook. It was neat to see them because I don't have any of my own. They were largely destroyed when I got disowned by my mom not long after my grandma died. That fur stole is my grandma's - she let me borrow it for junior prom. |
I couldn't go because I was sick - really sick, when I moved I was a hacking mess sick - but I was invited all the same. And I do go out when invited. Does that make me popular? I don't know.
I worry about it a lot. Maybe everybody does and they just don't talk about it.
So... note to self: focus on science, poetry and having fun, less on what other people think of me.
Sounds... easy?......
Maybe you're not old enough. For some of us, you get to a certain age and decide, that at some fundamental level, you don't give a flying f@#$ about what other people think, especially those who aren't family or close friends.
ReplyDeleteThanks. :-) The hardest thing is stopping the reflexive "I can change someone's mind!" thing.
DeleteI have to grow out of that or I won't get my contract renewed (just got Visiting Assistant Professor. Yeah!)
I just need to learn to bite my tongue and say to myself "Their mind is not going to change. You're just hurting their feelings and/or alienating them."