I didn't get the job.
So, I found out this is my last semester as a professor. The clincher surprised me.
Apparently I was in the last 3 candidates when my evaluations came through. Even though I scored really well on things like "Did I learn a lot from this course?" and "The course followed the outlined objectives" and "Material was returned to me promptly with valuable feedback," I received low interpersonal relationship scores ("Does the instructor value me as a student?" "Did I feel comfortable coming to the professor?")
I kind of knew I didn't like science. But the idea that I'm not valuable as a teacher is something of a shock.
It shouldn't be. Even though my superiors love me (or at least gave me amazing recommendations), I'm not really particularly skilled at communication. People perceive me as critical and judgmental.
I'm not sure who I am if I'm not a scientist or a teacher.